November 30, 2010 changed my life!
↓ The biggest change that happened was this. ↓
YEP! This was the day that I learned I was preggo with B!
Lots of things were going on between me and BD at the time and I had already removed myself and most of my belongs from the house by this time.
I had a hard time during the pregnancy battling depression and anxiety that spawned from the fighting with BD. I am 100% happier now that BD is out of my life (for the most part). My depression is gone and my anxiety is better. I never realized how much damage my marriage was actually doing to my health.
Once I found out I was pregnant I started seeing a therapist and can say now that I am happy. I haven't felt "happy" in years and most of that was because of the stress BD caused me.
My pregnancy started off with vertigo (not fun!) and I was freaking out over little things that I could normally shrug off.
And pregnancy insanity? Yeah, its a real thing. One day I snapped at work which resulted in me manhandling my bosses desk. He was complaining that we (I and his wife, who happens to be my other boss and my friend) organized his desk while he was gone. After hearing a grown ass man whine like a child for 15 minutes I had had it! I calmly walked over to his desk picked up the bins that we had neatly filed his papers in and shook them upside down as well as emptied the pen and paperclip holders then swished it all around. I said "There. Now it's back to normal." and walked back to my desk and resumed working. He didn't know what to do. Later that day he came over to my desk and apologized for the way he had acted.
That was perhaps the worst my pregnancy hormones got. Granted, I did cry a lot but who wouldn't being pregnant and watching their marriage fail?
I count my blessings everyday and I can't believe what miracle B is. He saved my life. I'm not sure where I would be without him. He can bring a smile to my face when everything else fails. I was in a bad place for a while but if given the chance to re-do it I wouldn't change a thing. Things happened to me for a reason and B is that reason. He is my everything and always will be!
|I love you B!|